Time

Its been a long time since I was here!

Time is passing me by

    and I often wonder if the world will hear the cry.

The violence of this generation

     is yet another confirmation

Our society is not grounded

     Our focus has gone astray

There needs to be a resounding plea

      Our standard must be set for all to see

Independence Day

Independence Sometimes thinking isn't the best thing to do!  I am sure we all have sat back and asked the "but why" question to nearly everything!  That's a popular script during the "bored" seasons of our lives, or more appropriately, the difficult seasons of our lives.  I check out this myspace a few times a week and I am so amazed at all of the people that I know who are doing so many things in their lives.  You never know how many people you are socially related to until something like Myspace or Xanga come about.  How did we all get to where we are now?  I have a ton of respect for all of my friends and acquaintances who have attained some of their goals that they set out for so many years ago.  I really believe society downplays great achievements like Graduating College--getting that first BIG paycheck and getting married.  The Social "Presidents" seem to designate the common temper that there is so much to do--makes you wonder if we ever will reach that place that will allow us to Park and enjoy life.  Like me for instance:  God has given me all the tools needed to achieve success and yet, I haven't.  Save the most precious blessing of my beautiful and sweet wife, Teresa.  Im still not out of college--worse yet, I am stuck going to schools that I don't want to and going after a degree in a field that I am not enfatuated with (due to my own faults and errors in life).  I am forced to partake in the infamously popular trend--work full time and go to school full time--cause you to write a blog on Myspace full of run-on's and realize that this becomes a vicious cycle--and back to the sentence at hand-- to drop to part-time--at this rate you do end up spending four years at a JR College and then God knows how long until you can get the degree that certifies that you are officially "qualified" to do the jobs that you have been doing for many years at a quarter of the salary that the degree will land you.  Then of course when those great opportunities that feasibly allow you to achieve financial freedom stare you in the face, you can't take that vehicle because past mistakes won't allow for you to take risks. Needless to say--Im rambling about the social injustices that we have allowed ourselves to justify, and the other setbacks that cause' US to shriek out "BUT WHY?" Oh, Independence--freedom and justice for all. Democracy of a pscyhological Regime Joel

A new beginning!

Its been 3 difficult weeks but I finally got a good job offer and Im taking it!  I start monday working for PNC Bank!!  In other news today,  IM GETTING MARRIED!!!! TODAY!!!!!    Say a prayer for me and Teresa! 

God Bless!

Joel

Clean Slate

Today I woke up in a familiar state of mind.  The kind that is overwhelmed by racing thoughts and inspired dreams.  Today I begin packing for yet another move--another change--another chance.  Most move's are thought of as 1) either a great opportunity or 2) another setback into reality--the move that reminds us just how far we are from reaching our aspirations. The one we choose depends on our state of mind.  Do we have inner peace about the transition or are we fearful of what is to come. 

Naturally, there is always a fear that underlines every new step--fear of uncertainty--not knowing what is to come.  Truthfully, there is also a rush of excitement in the opportunity to close one chapter in our lives and to open another--one that has yet to be written! 

This move that I am about to make has to be the most sincere move that I have ever made.  The recent past must be changed--although I realize it will never be erased.  The anxiety is in the realization that I must progress this time around.  I have to make choices for my future--even if they are choices that aren't adorned in excitement and immediate pleasure. 

This is a new chapter.  The chapter that fate has already presupposed:  "Clean Slate."

jkell 

Optimism's Hope

Its very difficult when we are working hard at trying to get something done.  Especially, when that "something" is a necessity.  Do you ever notice that it seems challenges persist during a time of trial?  When we endure a slew of difficult experiences--some in which we overcome and some in which beat us--the next step is not always easier!  That's when the most important choice presents itself--we can either dwell on the disappointment of rejection or we can get up and keep trying!  One step forward or three steps back!

If you are going through this type of experience--hold on and keep moving forward.  I know its hard--trust me I do--but just like you, WE are going to make it through! 

jkell